It's been a couple weeks since I began my running routine and I've enjoyed every minute of it. Yet tonight I opted not to run to cure myself from the insomnia I've been experiencing and obviously since I'm here, it's to no avail. So why not right about "next steps".
So it is...the eve of a new beginning. Tomorrow will be where I begin to pick up the pieces of a broken heart with hopes to strengthen it for a new start. As I said a few weeks back, I will seek alternative therapies, exercise and now NUTRITION, in hopes of kicking this PCOS outta here!
I hope to rid myself of this condition so we can successfully plan to achieve "family status of 2+?". So, wish me luck on this newfound journey of hopes and dreams and on that note, I say "Namaste".
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Ala natural!
Ala natural es el dicho! Yes, indeed, I have finally decided to try and revamp this condition naturally with exercise, diet and supplements! It was day two of a 3mi run and it was absolutely exhilirating! Love the cool wind kissing upon my blushing face. Nothing feels better than a liberating run with an optimistic outlook on life.
Stay tuned as I log miles and navigate through unfound territory!
Stay tuned as I log miles and navigate through unfound territory!
Sunday, January 9, 2011
Six days later...
Six days later and I'm still getting through the "moment" when the rug was pulled from under me. It was very disappointing learning the news of a "negative result". It was a defining moment for us and now we're left to wonder--"what's next?"
Simply said--We really don't know what's next or when that next moment will present itself. But, all I do know is that I do want it to happen more than anything in this world but at what cost? I know that sounds horrible but it's the truth. All that plagues my mind is $$$=possibilities filled with uncertainties. I'll never stop hoping or dreaming of the day it all becomes reality but the road there is just so sketchy to me that I feel like I can't keep my head out of the fog right now.
Simply said--We really don't know what's next or when that next moment will present itself. But, all I do know is that I do want it to happen more than anything in this world but at what cost? I know that sounds horrible but it's the truth. All that plagues my mind is $$$=possibilities filled with uncertainties. I'll never stop hoping or dreaming of the day it all becomes reality but the road there is just so sketchy to me that I feel like I can't keep my head out of the fog right now.
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
This is it...Finally!
As thoughts fire through my head all I can do is maintain my eye on the prize--YOU! I just want you to know that whether or not this is your time to shine, I will love you whenever you are ready to join us. Time has come and gone but I still remain hopeful and trust in God that you will arrive when all is right. Genesis 21:2
Saturday, November 27, 2010
Fifteen days later and range of emotions...
From the very highs to the very lows, I can say I've experienced them all within the last 15 days. Including an unexpected week of bloating that appeared to look like I was already on my way to birth a baby. Throughout this time, there has been plenty of talk between me and my BF ranging from names, dates to results. At this time, our results began with 33 eggs retrieved to 24 fertilized to our lucky 7 that have survived the week in the lab to become our official snowbunnies! Next stop, more injections with migraines, back aches and bruising:(
Through this all, the best and most exciting news have been that we are set for 12.21.10 for our frozen embies to make their way to their nesting place. We are excited beyond words that it leaves me with insomnia--not good but too overjoyed to sleep! We're hoping and praying for great news come early January so we will continue to hang on to our faith.
Through this all, the best and most exciting news have been that we are set for 12.21.10 for our frozen embies to make their way to their nesting place. We are excited beyond words that it leaves me with insomnia--not good but too overjoyed to sleep! We're hoping and praying for great news come early January so we will continue to hang on to our faith.
Friday, November 12, 2010
Thirty-three my new favorite number...
This number signifies the amount of possibility that will lead to an eventual dream. I choose to remain positive and believe in hope for that's all there is--hope and prayer.
Today began very early (4:45am to be exact) with a heavy heart and wandering mind. Anxiety and worry along with an entire host of emotions surrounded me as I laid in darkness awaiting the sunrise. I tossed and turned seeking comfort from the pain but could not; I tossed and turned waiting to get my BF's attention which I did. He immediately turned to me and wrapped his arms around me while whispering, "It's going to be okay". His warmth and tenderness helped me to drift off for another twenty minutes before "go time".
As I prepared for the day, all I can think of was-What if this doesn't work? What if it does and if it does, how many can be retrieved? The rambling thoughts spun me around but before I knew it, iIwas on my way out the door to no longer wonder but to know.
To know where this day will lead our lives and to know how many possibilities will be available to us.
As I prepared to face the unknown, all I can do at that moment was wring my hands and periodically gaze over at my BF's tender eyes. His eyes said so much without saying...don't worry, it'll all be okay...don't be nervous...what's meant to be, will be and above all else, I love you.
Minutes later, I was being instructed to lay back, prop my legs up and prepare to become a stirrup queen. What appeared to be a long time waiting turned out to be a moment in time. A moment in which my possibilities were being plucked one by one.
Through the pain, the best thing I heard today was the number (drum roll please) 33. This number signifies how many eggs were retrieved today in preparation for a (frozen embryo transfer) FET. I have made it through the biggest hurdle of it all, now it's just the waiting game of when the FET will occur. FET, in my case, needs to take place because of the high possibility of hyperstimulation based on my test and ultrasound results.
Albeit, this part of the waiting game is disappointing and stressful but nonetheless worth every moment.
Today began very early (4:45am to be exact) with a heavy heart and wandering mind. Anxiety and worry along with an entire host of emotions surrounded me as I laid in darkness awaiting the sunrise. I tossed and turned seeking comfort from the pain but could not; I tossed and turned waiting to get my BF's attention which I did. He immediately turned to me and wrapped his arms around me while whispering, "It's going to be okay". His warmth and tenderness helped me to drift off for another twenty minutes before "go time".
As I prepared for the day, all I can think of was-What if this doesn't work? What if it does and if it does, how many can be retrieved? The rambling thoughts spun me around but before I knew it, iIwas on my way out the door to no longer wonder but to know.
To know where this day will lead our lives and to know how many possibilities will be available to us.
As I prepared to face the unknown, all I can do at that moment was wring my hands and periodically gaze over at my BF's tender eyes. His eyes said so much without saying...don't worry, it'll all be okay...don't be nervous...what's meant to be, will be and above all else, I love you.
Minutes later, I was being instructed to lay back, prop my legs up and prepare to become a stirrup queen. What appeared to be a long time waiting turned out to be a moment in time. A moment in which my possibilities were being plucked one by one.
Through the pain, the best thing I heard today was the number (drum roll please) 33. This number signifies how many eggs were retrieved today in preparation for a (frozen embryo transfer) FET. I have made it through the biggest hurdle of it all, now it's just the waiting game of when the FET will occur. FET, in my case, needs to take place because of the high possibility of hyperstimulation based on my test and ultrasound results.
Albeit, this part of the waiting game is disappointing and stressful but nonetheless worth every moment.
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